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yours truly, lilly

Hello friends,

It’s been a while and a lot has changed since my last Yours Truly. Most notably that I’m now a senior, slowly coming to grips with the fact that I’ll no longer be able to sit with my best friends in the kitchen of our ancient apartment at 11 PM to review the day and complain about what we need to do the next.

College is these small moments – talks in the kitchen – that otherwise we may never do again with friends who go to sleep in the same, shared space as us and wake up and eat breakfast there too. I never thought of college as fleeting until senior year came, and so quickly did it come. I feel nostalgic about the present, something I also didn’t think was possible. During our long, kitchen-table talks, I feel relieved, usually wiping away tears of laughter, but there’s also a small part of me that is in disbelief that this time next year things will not be the same.

When the thought of returning to my hometown indefinitely begins to terrify me, I think of how lucky I am that I’m happy here. I’ve learned a lot about myself and others and have had the privilege to learn, work, and train for my sport all in the same place. Kind of insane and kind of amazing that we have this little world on a hill in the Bronx. There were many times that I felt lost – I probably spent more time worrying about the future than feeling grateful for what I have throughout college – but there is a light at the end of the tunnel and there is the ability to be present there too, even if it doesn’t come until senior year.

Rock on friends. There is always tomorrow.

Yours Truly,



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